Diesel - our beautiful calico (I can't believe you've been gone 2 years!)


The last months of your precious life it hurt SO much to see your physical agility slipping...
The pain in your eyes with the growing cancer within you...
Your "earthly appearance" becoming more bony, gaunt, and debilitating - yet you still came into a room full of pride, announcing your arrival by giggling your collar bell. 
Purring VERY loudly - not letting anyone forget WHY you were named "Diesel".

We knew "it was time" March 1st, 2005, when you could no longer walk more than 2 steps, wouldn't purr at all, and you wouldn't even eat your "treats"...  I lay on the floor by you all night, petting you, trying to give you water, and wishing I could take your pain for you...  but the "light of life" in your eyes was gone...

Wednesday, March 2nd, at 7:30 the vet was called and we were taking you in... 
The vet had no encouraging words, and could only offer "temporary relief" at best...
...we just couldn't prolong your suffering any longer, and I learned about 'euthanasia':
...an easy and painless death.   act or method of causing death painlessly, so as to end suffering; advocated by some as a way to deal with pets dying of incurable, painful diseases.

At 8am I held you in my arms so you weren't afraid to leave - so you weren't alone,
and I hope you thought, "Oh, I'm just going to sleep in "Daddy's" arms - like so many times before"
...and I felt your little life leave you - as peacefully as you came into it

"I have sent you on a journey to a land free from pain, not because I did not love you, but because I loved you too much to force you to stay."

Diesel,
Thank you for teaching me about unconditional love,
respect for ALL living creatures,
and showing us your pure heart

I love you
I miss you
YOU made a HUGE impact on MY life